Jasper!

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Hey everyone! So today has been a day filled with 3 things. Jasper, Jaspy, and Jaspy's body! It's just amazing, I love him so much and obviously can't wait until the wedding. Late last night we drove down to the coast of California to stay at the beach for the weekend! The car ride was torture, sitting to close to him but yet not touching him and kissing him everywhere. As soon as we got to the hotel though, in the lobby while the doorman was bringing our bags to our room, we let it out because I couldn't hold it in anymore! We tore our clothes up in the lobby and fell to the floor, getting so frisky we rolled around for about 3 minutes! Then, the doorman squatted down, tapped my shoulder, and asked if he could join! He stripped and laid down next to me, but Jaspy and I got up, creeped out! At that point another doorman came over, fired the naked guy, and told us to go to our rooms or we would be kicked out! He gave us 2 towels to wrap around ourselves. Jaspy just put his around his waist to cover up his boy parts, I had mine around my chest to cover up my lady parts! In the elevator, he was so close, and it was impossible to not find his bare chest distracting! As soon as we got into our room we ripped the towels off and got in the bath tub together! It was pure ecstasy, by the way that was this morning! We did that for about 79 minutes then went down to get breakfast! It was torture, having to put on clothes, but I just put on a bikini and he put on his swimsuit trunks! So we had breakfast together, I had cucumbers, carrots, and we shared a smoothie consisting of apples, oranges, and spit! It was just delicious. Then we decided to go swimming to burn off the calories! We swam for a little, but then I got bored after 7 minutes so we made out! It got so frisky we tore off our swim wear and did our thing in the pool! Then, a security guard came and kicked us out of the hotel! We packed up our things and went down to the lobby to check out when the couch distracted us, so we tore off out clothes and did our thing again on there! Then, some dude had to physically pull us apart and carry us outside to Jasper's car, with our luggage! We just spent the afternoon in the backseat of the car until we got kicked of the premises. Now, we are heading back to Phoenix, after an amazing day with Jasper!

Past Few Days!

Hey guys, I haven't posted in a few days, sorry about that! I've just been pretty busy with work and my wedding and all. Wednesday I had to work extra because I took off a few hours Tuesday to look for cake flavors, so I had to work 6-6! Crazy, huh? Wednesday night Jasper went with his groomsmen for tuxes, he sent me pics though, he looked so hot ;) Can't wait to get some of that on our wedding night! :D I just Skype with my mom while he was gone and we talked about my wedding and what I have done so far and all! Today was a pretty good day, turns out the electricity went off in the building last night, so I didn't have to work! I also have off tomorrow and Monday for labor day, which is fantastic!! Anyway, I slept in with Jasper until about 10am, when we woke up at the same time (romantic, huh?) and then kissed in my bed until around noon, when we got up and had lunch! His mom made us mac and cheese, we fed each other while she sewed matching bibs for us so next time I don't get any on my naked body, like today! After lunch Jasper and I went to a local butterfly place, where butterflies land on you and you can touch them and all! But, Jaspy and I got distracted and just ended up making out on the floor of the room and we tore each others clothes off and got banned from the premises! Tough luck. So we continued our thing in a porta potty for about 2 hours, and then went out to dinner together at Super Salad! So happy they have one in Phoenix, too! We, sadly, had to put our clothes back on to go in. But, of course, we got a secluded booth!! :D :D Right now he is taking a bath, I am about to go join him before going for my wedding dress fitting with my bridesmaids minus Ella!

Beginning of Work!

Hey everyone, my first 2 days of work went great! I'm so glad I found such a well-paying job as this one! I had work at 9, so I was able to sleep in until 8am! That is definitely a plus :) At work I just answered the phone, scheduled appointments, and took messages! Sounds simple, but it's actually a lot of work when the phone rings almost all day long without a break! I got off at 6, and then Jasper and I went to look at invitations! We found the style I want (white background with magenta and yellow flowers)! I wrote down the message we want, and put out the order for them to be calligraphized! They will be done in exactly one week, pretty fast service! Anyway, afterwards Jasper and I cuddled on the couch, he was rubbing my boobs, while his mom watched and gave him suggestions! It was great, so relaxing. Then we both went to our rooms after saying goodnight, rolling on the hallway floor kissing until his little sister came and stepped on my ear! This morning was pretty much the same, work at 9-3 though, same things, and then we went to taste cake flavors after dinner! I have decided on vanilla lemon swirl, something very elegant but delicious, with raspberry icing! YUMMY IN MY TUMMY. Afterwards Jasper and I went to burger kind for a milkshake but after ordering we got distracted with my low cut top so he tore it off and we made out for about 7 minutes until the car behind us honked and all! So after getting out milk-shakes we went to a secluded meadow and did our thing for for about 3 hours before getting dressed again and heading back home! :)

Honeymoon Plans!

Last night, as I told you, Jasper and I made all of the plans for our honeymoon! It was great, it will definitely be heaven on earth! We are going to hawaii, so he will be able to see me in a bikini! That is definitely a plus, also he will be shirtless the whole time! :D The wedding will be a morning wedding, at 11am! We will be having a tent outside for ordeurvs while the wedding party and all does pictures with us, and then lunch will be served around 1:30, and we have the reception room until 5! The afternoon will definitely be filled with a lot of dancing, I want everyone up of their butts and shaking their booty on the dance floor, having the time of their lives! Jasper and I will head off to a hotel for the night, near the airport, and have dinner there and stuff! Of course, the night will be filled with two people getting frisky, if ya know what I mean ;) Our flight is Sunday morning at 11, so we will fly to Hawaii and stay until Saturday evening! We both were able to get off of work for a week, that I'm so thankful for! I am actually only staying with that job until a few weeks after the wedding, because Jasper and I found a house in down-town LA an hour from my family, 4 from his! We signed all of the papers and such today, and we get to move in November 2nd! I am so happy, this will be a great beginning for Jasper and I to start out our lives as a married couple! :)

My Sunday!

I had a great day with my family! I woke up and went to church, I had missed all of my friends from youth group so much! Jasper came along, I introduced him as my fiancee and everyone was really happy and included him and all! :) After church we went to lunch at Luberto's, an Italian place where they have the best sea salt and butter pasta! I just love it and I had so much, I think I'm gaining weight! ;) After lunch Jasper accompanied me to my doctor's appointment, just to to get checked out and some tests done to make sure I'm okay from my miscarriage! Everything was fine, so we went back to my house, packed, and left to go back to Arizona! It was really sad, I will miss my family so much, especially since I remembered how nice it was to live with my mom and all again the past few days! I cried a little bit when we left at 3pm, Jasper and I made out in the driveway thought while my mom watched, which did comfort me! During the drive we planned out our honeymoon, more details on that in my next post! Boy was it hard to stay in control when talking about the honeymoon, because it just made me feel so frisky Jasper pulled over and we went at it in the back of his car! We just couldn't wait for the honeymoon ;) Here is a minute by minute! Jasper looked me in the eye, pulled over, we both stripped as fast as we could and layer in the back seat together for about an hour! Then we decided we better get back in the car and start to drive again, lol ;) That was around 6, we started to drive again at 7, so right now we have another 3 hours to go until we get home! :)

Wedding Dress/Baby!

Hi everyone, I have narrowed down my wedding dress options to just 2! I am going to try them both on Thursday, like I mentioned, and make my final decision!

I am leaning toward the second option, because I do have a slimmer waist and would like that to be accented! Anyway, my friend from yoga in NYC had her baby last week like I mentioned, and she sent me a pic today of baby Daisy. 

Isn't she precious?!?!

Anyway, back to the wedding! I called Lily, Drew, Rosalie, and Ella, and they all agreed to be bridesmaids! I'm really happy, my wedding is going to be perfect! Also, Lily, Drew, and Rose are all able to come down from NYC for bridesmaid dress fittings, but Ella is super busy planning her own wedding so I am just shipping her dress to a bridal shop in LA, so when she goes for her wedding dress fitting she can quick try on her bridesmaid dress for my wedding! I am a little worried about Lily, though, not sure if her dress will fit or not because she is 4 and a half months pregnant and might need alterations! Hopefully everything goes okay! Anyway, slight change of plans, instead of tomorrow being a date night, we are going to taste wedding cake flavors, decide what we want, and then place the order! This upcoming week is going to be super busy, but I'm sure everything will work out okay! :)

In LA!

Hey everyone! I know I said we were going to leave for LA after church, but it turns out I have to work tomorrow, when we thought I had to start Tuesday! Yesterday around 3pm Jasper and I left for LA! I don't mind long drives, because I'm in a car with my love and we just got to talk wedding plans for 6 hours! We got to LA around 9pm, and my mom and dad were waiting up for us! We told her we were getting married, and she is so happy for us! She is all into getting wedding plans down, and today we plan to talk a lot about my wedding dress and all! Jasper slept in my bed with me, but don't jump to conclusions we just kissed and got a little frisky, but nothing happened ;) I actually woke up a little bit ago, and plan to go to church with my family soon, and then just hang out around the house and all! Nothing big for today, except I am going to the doctors office to make sure everything is okay from my miscarriage and all. I'll let you know how that goes!

Wedding Plans!

Hey everyone! As I have mentioned multiple times, Jasper and I are getting married! It's so exciting, I just love him with all of my heart, plus more. Also what's funny is that my best friend Ella is also getting married this fall! On the plane to Arizona, Jasper and I worked out the details for our wedding/life afterwards! We will be getting married outside, in a meadow near his house/our future home! The wedding will take place October 11st this fall! We both love fall, and want the wedding to happen as soon as possible so we can begin our life together as a married couple! The reception will be in a re-done, modern barn a few miles from the ceremony! I have been looking in wedding magazines like crazy, and think I found the dress! It has a sweat heart neckline with a lace bodice and then pics out at my waist! It's not crazy poofy though, just a little bit! I have decided the color theme of our wedding to be magenta and yellow, the bridesmaid dresses will be yellow, and the flowers magenta! The bridesmaids will wear flower headbands, as will i, as part of my veil! I have decided on 4 bridesmaids, Ella as my maid of honor, and Drew, Lily, and Rosalie as my bridesmaids! I haven't asked any of them yet, this is just what I want. Jasper's brother and 3 friends will be his groomsmen! We already worked out our guest list (137 people) and will be sending out the invites soon! Our date night Monday will also include picking out invitations and putting an order for them to be addressed in calligraphy! Wednesday we are going with Jasper's groomsmen for the first fitting for their tuxes! Thursday night I will be going with my mom, future mother-in-law, and my bridesmaids. I'm going to call Lily, Rosalie, and Drew to see if they can come then! Friday night Jasper and I are going to taste foods for the wedding at 2 different catering services near Phoenix! Saturday morning we are going to confirm the location for the ceremony and reception, we are 99 percent sure it will all work out! Saturday afternoon we are going to make lots of random decisions such as table cloth color, place settings, gifts, place-cards, et cetera! Saturday night we are actually going to go out to dinner together on a date for some private make out time to relax us for the next week! I'm sure planning a wedding in a month and a half will be tough, but I'm sure I can do it! :)

Plans for the Week!

Hey everyone! I have great news, I was accepted for the open secretary position! I had an interview yesterday afternoon, and got the call saying I was accepted this morning! I'm so happy! Yesterday I just unpacked and went on a date night with Jasper, and I didn't do anything yet today! Just going to go over my week plans for you guys! Tomorrow I'm going to church, I found one that looks great, I'm going to go by myself though, Jasper and his family don't believe in church! After church I'm driving to LA, 6 hours, but I don't mind! Jasper and I want to go break the news. We are spending the night in LA, since I don't have to work until Tuesday! Tuesday I work 9-6, and then will probably just hang around the house for the evening! Wednesay I also work 9-6, and it will be a date night with Jasper! We decided Monday, Wednesday, and Friday nights will be our date nights, when we go someone alone to make out and all! Thursday I work 9-4 like always, and then probably just planning out wedding! More details about that in my next post. Friday I work 9-4, like always, and then Jasper and I have a date night! Saturday we have plans related to the wedding, of course see my next post for info on all of that :) 

New Job!

Hey everyone! Little change of plans, our flight got moved to 5:40 instead of 8! We got to the airport at 4:40, so we just made it onto the plane! It was a really stressful ordeal, but I'm glad we made it! Since I have a 5 hour flight ahead of me, I decided to talk about my new job I'm hoping to get! It is a full-time secretary job, I will just be managing papers/taking calls at the front desk at a real-estate office! Of course, I don't know if I have the job yet, but I'm really hoping for it! The time is perfect for me too, 9-6! I like to sleep in, so I will be able to sleep in a little! I think this is the perfect job for me, because it doesn't require a degree! I plan on being a stay-at-home mom while I have little children, and then when my mom retires take over her website design business, because I have always been interested in art and all! This secretary job pays really well, and I think it would be perfect for me because I need money for my wedding, plus an apartment/house! Jasper and I plan to live in an apartment until we have kids, and then move to a house! Houses are so expensive these day, so of course I'm already putting aside money! I do have my college fund, I got a refund (we payed for the first year, I got half of the money back!) and of course the money I was going to use for the rest of my college career! Will I go back to college, proably not, I didn't really enjoy it and just don't think college is for me! I'm really happy with my decision to move to Arizona, it will be a fresh start for Jasper and I, and only an hour and a half (by plane) away from my family :)

Surprise!

I'm moving to Arizona! :D This morning Jasper came to my apartment and we were just talking, normal casual conversation, when he said he is moving! Of course I already knew he was from Arizona, but it turns out he just found out his younger brother has cancer, he is 14 years old! Jasper is really upset, he's close to his brother, Emmett, and it's really hard for him because Emmett only had 2 months, tops, to live! Jasper did invite me to come along, I thought it over and decided to! I can't bear to be away from my fiance, Jasper. Oops, wasn't supposed to say that yet! When I said yes, he got down on one knee and presented me with a ring! I started to cry but said "yes yes a million times yes" before he could even say the words! We had a very heavy make-out session until the nurse came in to interrupt! They did a few more tests, and cleared me free to go! I went to quit college, I'm not even going to finish the semester because Jasper wants to get to Arizona as soon as possible! When I got home I finished packing up all of my things by 3pm! Our plane leaves tonight at 8, Jasper is picking me up in half an hour to make it to the airport in time! I was online searching for jobs in Phoenix, and found an open position 15 minutes away from Jasper's house! I will be living in the guest room, with his family, until this fall when we will be getting married! We don't want to live together until married, just because I don't want to get pregnant and then have a baby bump at the wedding! I am so excited to pledge my heart and soul to the man I love.

Bad News!

Hey everyone! I have terrible news...I'm in the hospital! I woke up this morning with terrible pains in my lower stomach, I didn't know what was happening! I just got worse and worse that all I could do was lay in bed! Drew drove me to the hospital, where I got a bunch of tests done and all! It turns out my baby wasn't doing well, I had actually gone into labor at 4 weeks! Obviously, my baby wouldn't survive if that was the case, but they couldn't stop it so they just let it go! I had my baby this morning at 10:09, technically just a miscarriage. I was really upset, I loved him/her so much! The doctor's couldn't even tell if it was a boy or girl. I miss him/her so much! They are keeping me in the hospital for the next day or so, just to make sure nothing else is wrong. I also have more bad news! I got fired from working at Hollister! I missed work Monday, and I called in to say I wouldn't be able to make it, and they said I'm fired! I can't believe it, I only  missed 2 days of work but I didn't realize that if you missed 10 hours, which I would have missed! It stinks, but it all will hopefully be for better good, my miscaraige and losing my job. But, I don't think I will ever recover from the devasting loss of my baby.

My Choice!

Hey everyone, I'm sure you have all been wondering about what I decided to do about Jasper and Jake! They left my apartment Sunday afternoon, and I just cried in my room for awhile, I didn't know what to do! I had my yoga class for pregnant women again around 4, which relaxed me a lot because I could talk to Lily and get her opinion and all! Sunday I just had dinner with Drew and Ella, which was nice! Ella is actualy leaving to go to LA, I miss her so much already! She got a great job oppurtnity down there. Anyway, I just did homework Sunday night! Yesterday, my 2 classes were canceled (teachers were sick) and I took off from work! Yesterday morning I talked to Jake, he came to my dorm for lunch! I told him I did love him, but that I loved Jasper too, and he has been there for me througout my pregnancy so far! Jake took it well, he was upset and all, of course, boys totally adore me, but he made it! When he got up to leave Drew came in, and that brightened him up a little! After he left Drew and I had a talk, turns out she really likes Jake and wants my permission to ask him out! I said yes, of course, because I'm still dating Jasper! We went out to dinner last night to celebrate, to Super Salad! We got our normal secluded booth and made out the whole time, didn't even order any food but drinks! It was heaven on earth. Afterwards, we drove home and made out in our room for about an hour before Ella got back, and then he had to leave so I could help Ella pack and say goodbye! It was sad, I miss her so much! I am coming into LA in 2 weeks though, for my19th  birthday September 3rd! This morning was great, Drew and Jake went out on a first day and Drew said it went really well! She's been so happy today, I'm really glad for her and hope it won't be awkward of anything because I am pregnant with his baby! But, oh well. I had 2 make-up classes today from them being canceled yesterday, 10-1, and 1-4! They went well, I do have a lot of homework thought that I plan on doing tonight after going out to dinner with Lily! More big news, Lily is moving into my dorm since Ella left! Lily is 16 weeks pregnant (4 months) and is starting college September 9st! Term ends August 30th, and she decided to move in this weekend because she wants to get settled and all before starting school! I'm really happy for her, she is majoring in Elementary Education and minoring in Special Ed! The rest of the week is just going to be a normal week, with work, class, and Jasper!

It All Begins With a Choice

Hey everyone! I have a lot to update you on, so I better get started! Last night when I came home in a thong, Drew was the only one in the house and didn't really care! I got dressed in black leggings and a pink pajama tee and finished up some homework until about 11, when I went to bed because I had to get up early for church today! I wore a yellow sundress with sandals to church, I'm still in the summer spirit! I was super excited, because I convinced Jasper to come to church with me! He doesn't share my religion, but if he never does I don't think it will change my choice because I just love him so much! Jasper picked me up at 8 and we made out on our couch for about 13 minutes before going to church! We kissed while we were at a red light, and got pulled over again! It's crazy how much Jaspy and I get pulled over. We made it to church and it was a great, inspiring service! I love church, almost as much as I love Jaspy's kisses, because it relaxes me and makes me feel closer to God! After church Jaspy and I went out to lunch at Surprise Salad, we love it there because of the secluded booths! So, of course, we fed each other and mostly just made out! I was sitting on his lap so he had better access to my lady parts ;) After lunch we went back to my aparment, planning on just hanging out for a little until my yoga class at 3. When we got to our door he pushed me up against the door and kissed me roughly! We were getting frisky when the door opened from behind and he fell on top of me! It was hilarious, we were both laughing so much and still kissing, when I heard someone's throat being cleared. I looked up, and there was Jake! I kinda freaked, turned pale, pushed Jaspy off and stood up, staring at Jake. Jaspy was confused, I had never rejected his kisses before! I told him this was Jake, my baby's father, and he got really angry and walked up to Jake all cool like about to punch him when Ella came in! She saw who was here, and abruptly backed out of the kitchen awkwardly. I told Jaspy to leave, so Jake and I could talk! Jake told me he still loved me so much and wanted us to get back together! He said his girlfriend (who broke up with him) was just a distraction to cover up the pain of me leaving! He thought if we just broke up it would be eaiser on him but he said it was harder, esspecially pretending he didn't care about our baby! At this point his lifted up my shirt, exposing my still flat belly, and leaned down and kissed it! Jake asked me if I would take him back, and I didn't know what to do! I told him I still loved him, but I loved Jaspy, too! He said he is in town for the whole week, so I have a long time to choose! So, for me, it all begins with a choice, Jaspy or Jake? Vote below! :)

Date

I just got home from my date with Jasper! So after he got us food we fed each other and then went back to making out! We got so frisky we rolled off the couch (LOL) but just continued on the floor! We ended up taking off our pants (underwear still on) for most of the time! When my back started to hurt really bad from rolling on the floor and all, we went to the bathtub! We stripped and got in the bath together! It was amazing I love him so much! We splashed for a bit then got frisky and down to business ;) When we started to get kinda cold and all we shared and towel and our body heat heated each other! I put on my bra and thong and put on one of his sweatshirts! He just put on boxers. He drove me home, we were delayed in the parking lot of my dorm again, and got ANOTHER ticket! Oh my goodness cops are just out to get me today. I sprinted upstairs to the 4th floor were our room is, still in my thong and bra/sweatshirt! Overall I had one of the best nights of my lives and wouldn't change anything :)

Jasper!

Hey everyone! So I know I said my date with Jasper was at 8, but he surprised me by coming early, at 7! I was half dressed, which just got our date off to a better start! I was in a bra and thong, so he knocked on my door and I said come in because we were home alone and all so we kissed on my bed for a little until we heard a knock on the door and Drew calling she forgot her key! So while Jasper went to get the door I put my bra back on (did I ever mention it came off? ;) just that tho, don't jump to conclusions!) and got dressed! Jasper and I left but kissed in the back seat of his car for a little, his shirt came off in the process ;) and so did mine! But then the cops came (again) and gave us a ticket for loitering so I put my bra/shirt back on and we drove to his apartment! He lives alone, which makes it even better ;) When we arrived he pulled me to his sofa bed, turned on the TV and we made out! His shirt was still off, and mine was, of course, off again! We were just getting frisky when his stomach growled and ruined the mood! So he's getting some food while I blog. Oh, I hear him, I need to go continue! :D

Christine's Baby!

Hey everyone, right now I'm in the hospital! I got a call around 6:45 from Christine saying that she had her baby! Weird, right, because I just saw her a 5:30 and she was fine! Christine told me when she was walking to her car her water broke so she called for an ambulance and she was taken to her hospital and had the baby in the back of an ambulance! I was really happy for her, I saw her little baby girl, she's precious! Her name is Daisy Elizabeth. Just wanted to let you know! :)

My Saturday!

Hey everyone! Today was quite a busy day, you heard about almost everything already! Jasper left my apartment when I told him to around 2, and then Ella and I just did homework until around 4pm! I actually atteneded a yoga class for pregnant women, just to relax throughout your pregnancy and all! I met a few really nice girls there. Christine is 40 weeks pregnant, I can't believe how big she is! We became friends right away and I'm definitely going to stay in touch with her! I also met Lily, who is 16 weeks and has teeny little bump! She's so cute :) I went to dinner around 5:30 with Lily, and we just talked about stuff. I know we will be great friends! When I got back to my dorm around 6:30, who was waiting outside my door but Jasper! I ran to him and he had a bouquet of flowers and everything! We made out and it got so frisky we fell down and rolled on the floor for a while until a hall monitor caught us! We went into my room then and kissed in the living room! We kept it simple (not hands in shirts) because Drew was in the kitchen and could see us clearly, and Ella was in our bedroom so we didn't want to go in there! We wanted privacy really bad, so I am going to his house around 8pm for a movie date! He had to go though, he was late for a class but he's going to pick me up then! I'm so excited, can't wait to be alone with my lover!

Upset (reply to Ella)

Ella, this post is directed to you! Right now I'm in our bathroom, fully clothed sitting on the floor with our labtop, all alone! So our shower has a shower curtion, as you know. I walked in and when I heard the shower on I got all dizzy and felt really upset! I wasn't sure if I was ready to get into a serious relashionship when I am pregnant and just lost Jake! I still do love him, in a way, but I know I love Jasper, too! I I hid in our bathroom closet and told Jasper to get dressed and leave because I wasn't ready! He didn't say a word, he just left. I felt bad, but I know its the right choice! Ella, I know you are religious and so am I! We might have different ways of looking at relationships, but my relashionship with Jake was sweet and pure, I didn't tell anyone this but we were planning on getting married when we both turned 20! So I didn't think it would harm anything if we didn't wait until we got married. But, I still don't regret it because I got my baby out of it all! I love him/her so much and don't regret any of my choices! :)

Date Time!

Hey everyone! I got into NYC around 11, and home by 12! Jasper came to pick me up for our first official date at 12, right when I got home! We made out for about 7 and a half minutes (I timed it). It was amazing, I was in heaven! His hands were up my shirt and everything, same with my hands! Then, he rubbed/kissed my belly for about 3.45 minutes, he said he loves my baby like it was his own! Finally, we left the house but got distracted at the couch in the lobby and had a heavy make-out/french kissing session for 11.3 minutes until the lobby man told us we couldn't be doing that here! I was embarrassed, so we left and headed out to lunch at Surprise Salad! We got a secluded booth so we could kiss and all that! We kissed for 18 minutes before our food came! We didn't know what kind of salad we would get, hence the name Surprise Salad! We fed each other and then made out until our bill came! Jasper was thirsty though so he ordered a coke. After getting it we french kissed for 8.9 minutes and he knocked over his soda onto his lap! I didn't care though, I got even closer to him and sat on his lap so he would have better access to my lady parts under my shirt! It was amazing, until the manager kicked us out! We got in the car and laid in the backseat for awhile making out in the Panera parking lot until the cops caught us and said to get moving or we would be towed! We drove back to my apartment, and we kissed on my bed for awhile until Ella came in, and then Jasper got in the shower and I'm posting! Ella left so he hollered at me to join him in the shower a minute ago, that's where I'm going now ;)

Update!

Hey everyone! Yesterday was a pretty good day, as you know I told my mom about my baby and skyped with Jasper and we kissed through the screen as my mom applauded! And then I did a load of laundry in the afternoon and helped my mom by watching the babies so she could work! We ordered out dinner, and then I played with Colton and Tristan until Dad got home and 8 and he got them bathed and in bed! I went into my room for awhile, and then my dad came in and said my mom told him! He was mad, who wouldn't be if their 18 year old daughter got pregnant? He said the same thing Mom did though, he will support my decision whatever it is! I'm glad about that :) So I went to bed early, because my plane left at 3am this morning! I got up at 1 and my dad drove me to the airport on his way to work, which was nice of him! We will be arriving in NYC in about 15 minutes, I really should get off of my labtop now LOL ;)

Throwback Thursday Tag!

I got tagged by my best friend Ella to do this Throwback Thursday Tag she created! :)

1. When were you born? September 3rd, 1995!
2. Did you have any older siblings when you were born? Nope, I am the oldest in my family!
3. Did you have any pets growing up? We moved a lot, so I had many! When we lived in Michigan before any of the younger kids were born, I had a cat Kermit the Frog and a dog Pancake! We lived in West Virginia until Ryan was 2, there we had a bunny Fluffy, a baby puppy Sammy, and a frog Kelly! Currently, we have a bunny Blacky, a puppy Coral, and 7 fish! Obviously, they don't live with me in NYC but home in LA!
4. Did your parents work when you were growing up? Yes, my dad was a MLB couch/manager and he got transfered a lot so that's why we moved 3 times! My mom was working too, from home though.
5. Who was your first friend? My first friend was Julia from my church youth group in Michigan.
6. What was your favorite childhood TV show? I liked Elmo's World until I was 7!
7. What was your favorite color as a kid? Tan!
8. When you were able to shop for yourself, what stores did you like? I liked Macys selection of Modesty!
9. Did you play any sports? Nope!
10. What did you want to be when you grew up? I wanted to be an elephant!
11. Did you have any stuffed animals/blankets you had to have? Definitely, a blanket I called Lovey and a old dog stuffed animal that had been passed down from my mom's great great grandmother!
12. Did you like school? No I hated school!
13. Most embarrassing childhood moment? All of the stalls were full in the bathroom and I had to go, bad, so I peed in the trashcan and a teacher walked in! I was in 7th grade.
14. Yes, 7 younger! Blake is 13, Ryan is 9, Colton is 4, Tristan is 2 and Julian are Chrissie are about 1 month!
15. Did you enjoy your childhood? Yes, I had nice parents and overall a good life!

Jasper!

Hey everyone! I got 162 requests to do a post on Jasper, so I decided to do one now! Jasper is the man I want to spend the rest of my life with! When I was with him, the one night I have seen him so far, it was one of the best nights of my life! As I told you he is so sweet with me, and when we kissed goodbye his hands went up my shirt and it felt SO good! We made out too, and since I've watched my parents so many times, I was extremely skilled with it all and I thought I was very good! I didn't want him to have to leave, and neither did he but it was getting late and all! Since then we haven't seen each other because the next day I had a really busy day what my dr app, school, class, and catching a plane! But we have texted many times, he is the only one I have texted in the last 48 hours! Our texts are very romantic, too. He always says, "can I get a kiss?" and I always say yes and he's done that maybe 30 times and he said next time he sees me he will make good on his questions! :) Can't wait!! We have also said i love you many times, and he is asking me "i want to make love with you" all of the time! We did Skype earlier this afternoon, it was amazing we kissed through the screen! It wasn't as good though since I got lipstick on my computer screen, but it was still amazing because I could see his lips and imagine them on mine! We talked and "kissed" for an hour when my mom came in to say hi! I wanted to show her our way of "kissing" long-distance and he was as excited to show her as I was! She applauded when we were done and said we were definitely making it work! He had to go then, but I wish I could have gone on kissing him forever! I know now that this love I feel for Jasper is so different than the love I felt for Jake! I thought I loved Jake as much as I could possibly love him and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him, but I discovered I love Jasper even more! I want to get married, but that would be very stupid and unreasonable for a guy I've only known 48 hours! I know we will eventually get married, though :) Leave requests below!

Telling my Mom

Hey everyone! So today is Friday, and I arrived in LA at 1am! My dad picked me up and I missed him so much!! We got to our house around 2am, and my mom had waited up for me! I was so happy to see her, but very very tired so headed right to bed! I had missed sleeping in my bedroom! I woke up around 10am, nauseous, but I just thought I was hungry and all so I went into the kitchen and when my mom was making me breakfast I threw up in the trashcan! I didn't know why, only that I thought it was just morning sickness. My mom was really worried, I assured her it wasn't anything serious! I slightly started to cry though, so we went to her room and I told her I was pregnant! She was really angry at first, but said she thought I was going to get pregnant because of my night with Jake when we didn't use protection! I cried harder when she said she would support me throughout my choices and whatever I decided to do! I needed to tell me dad, but he was at work and won't be home until tonight at 8! My mom is going to tell him later, she doesn't want me involved for that part! Overall it went well, I was surprised at my mom's opinion! I told her about Jasper, too, and how I love him so much, and that Jake had dumped me! My mom said though I needed to tell them both about my baby, because Jake is the father, and Jasper is my boyfriend and he needs to know what he signed up for! So I called up Jake and told him, he was really chill about it! He told me I can have full custody of the baby, he has a steady, well-paying job so once the baby is born he will give me 50% income! Other than that, he doesn't want anything to do with the baby, though. That made me a little upset, how could I have loved someone that cruel! I also called Jasper and told him, he was really sweet about it and said it didn't change a thing and he still loved me and would support me and love the baby as his own! I teared up a little there, how could I have such a loving and supporting boyfriend? After all that was taken care of I had some brunch when little Juliana and Chrissie woke up! I peeked in on them when I got here just to see them while sleeping but didn't get to hold them or anything! So I spent awhile with them, just holding/taking/cooing to them! They are definitely the sweetest babies! Now, I'm just about to do some homework, and tonight I'm going to Victoria's house for dinner! That is Ella's mom, we are friends and all so I want to see her! :)

The College Life!

I got tagged by my best friend and roommate, Ella, to do this college life tag!

1. What college do you attend? I attend the University of NYC.
2. What is your major? My major is business!
3. What is your minor? My minor is literature!
4. Classic dorm or shared apartment? Shared apartment with 3 other girls! We have 2 bedrooms, and living and dining room area, and a kitchen, and 2 bathrooms!
5. How many classes do you have? I have 5 classes! Monday I have Business 2 and Western History of Arts, Wednesday I have Algebra 3 and Literature 4, and Thursday I have Money Management!
6. Favorite class you're currently taking? I really enjoy Business 2, because I love learning more about my future career!
7. How many friends have you made while in college? I have made a friend or two in every class, and a few from the floor of our building also attending NYC! And, I have a boyfriend :) His name is Jasper!
8. How many hours of homework do you have on a typical day? I have about 2 hours of actually written homework, and then usually an hour of studying!
9. Do you have a job? Yes, I work at Hollister 3 days a week! I work Monday 6:30pm-12:00 midnight, Wednesday I work from 2-8, and Thursday I work from 11:30-3:30!
10. Favorite college foods and drinks? My favorite college foods and drinks are orange juice, chips, popcorn, water, ice cream, brownies, pasta, bread, and chocolate!
11. Have you gained weight while in college? Yes, I have gained 17 pounds!
12. What year are you? I'm a freshman!
13. Are you going to join a sorority when you can? No, I would like to get my own apartment! I do like living where I am now, because I'm really close to schooL!
14. Do you walk or drive to class? I walk to class because I'm only a quarter mile from my school!
15. Favorite thing about college? I'm loving having freedom and making my own choices but I really do miss having my parents to instruct me, and I miss them so much!

My Day/Update!

Hey everyone! So today was Thursday, as you all know. I had a class, and I had to work! I actually woke up at 6am, because I scheduled a doctor's appointment for 7am (earliest it opens!) for my baby! I did actually get an ultrasound, even though I'm only 3 weeks pregnant! It didn't show very much because my baby is still of course very small but still growing, but from what they saw he/she seemed healthy! I could only see a teeny little blob, but as long as the doctors can tell what it is, I'm happy! The appointment went well, I scheduled another for 8 weeks when they can tell more what is going on down there! ;) So my appointment went until 8, which was when my Money Management class started! I didn't get there until 8:30, but I borrowed my friend's notes from the first half hour, so I'm all set! Class went until 11, I got a salad at Panera (trying to eat healthy, see my Freshman 15 post for more info) before work at 11:30! I had to work until 3:30, and then I headed straight to the airport! I had packed everything last night and took it to the car. I made it to the airport at 4:30, got through security, baggage check and all by 5:30, and then had 10 minutes to find something to eat for dinner until boarding! They aren't serving dinner or anything, just snacks and drinks of course! We took off at 6pm like scheduled, and are thought to arrive around 1am in LA! My dad is coming to pick me up, and we should be home by 2am! I'm so excited to see my family, I missed them so much! And of course I can't wait to meet Juliana and Chrissie! I've seen pics and talked to them through Skype, but it's never real until face-to-face! Also, I need to tell my mom about my baby. I'm afraid what she will think! I did tell her about Jake and I doing it the night before we left, because we are just close in that way! She wanted to hear all about, so I told her everything because she usually tells me about when my dad and her do it at night! It's so interesting to listen to, and definitely gave me tips when Jake and I did it! :)

Freshman 15

Hey everyone! So, since I am a freshman in college and all, a lot of you have been requesting me to do a freshman 15 post, because I post a lot about the food I eat! When I left for college, I weighed 123 pounds, which isn't bad at all! At home I did walk our dogs every morning, and do runs with my mom! But obviously I can't do that here, pets aren't allowed in our dorm and anyway that would be too much of a hassle for me when I'm not even home that much! So, in the past four weeks I have been in college, I have gained 17 pounds! That seems like a ton, and it is! When I weighed myself this morning I was so surprised, but I understand why! I mostly eat popcorn and water, and orange juice and chips. I order in pizza a lot, and don't have much fruits and vegetable. I am also eating a lot of grains (pasta and bread) and I really need to eat healthier! My mom raised me to eat really healthy, so I definitely need to get back into this routine! I've just been so hungry lately, which I now realize that is from my baby. I'm not going to try to get back to 120 pounds, because I am going to get bigger once my baby is bigger, but of course I'm going to start taking jogs around our dorm hallways every night! I also will walk on the treadmill every other day. And, of course, eat healthier! I am going to try to cut down on sodas and drink vitamin water for a change, and stop eating so much pizza and going out to eat every meal! I'm going to start cooking my own meals when I'm home, which should be good. Drew is a really good cook, and I'm sure she will cook for me! ;)

Big News!

So okay guys, I have a lot to tell you! Around 4 I headed off to an early dinner with a group of friends of mine from class! A few of them brought friends, including Jasper. Jasper is super hot, as soon I saw him it was love at first sight! We sat next to each other at dinner and we talked the whole time! Dinner was quick, over by 5:30 he walked me to my dorm (the restaurant was next door) and kissed me! Making out would probably be a better description, because it lasted at least 7 minutes and there was a little below-the-shoulders action. (aka his hands were in my shirt) So he released me and I walked up to my aparment, all happy removing my make-up in my bathroom until I opened my cabinet door under the sink for more toilet paper. I saw a box of tampons and realized I was a week late! I kinda freaked, I ran downstairs to the drugstore in our building, bought a test, took it when I got home, and it was positive! I really didn't know what to do, I knew it was Jake's baby but since he ditched me for another girl, I don't want him in my baby's life! I love my baby so much, even though I've only known him/her for 20 minutes. As soon I found out I started crying and Ella found me laying on the floor of our room. She was freaked out, thought I was hurt or something! But when I told her she was completely supportive and not mad at all or anything :) I don't deserve such a good friend as her, I deserve to be yelled and cursed at by how stupid I was I didn't use protection! I didn't tell my mom yet, but when I will I hope she will be supportive. It's not a good time right not, what with the Blake situation, but I know everything will turn out ok :)

Some news

Hai guys! So I have a lot of bad news...a lot. Turns out Blake made his secret girlfriend Miranda pregnant...I wasn't quite sure what to say to that because he is only 13 and she is 14! I have no idea what Miranda decided, if she is going to keep the baby, adoption, or abortion. I'm hoping for adoption, because no way do I want her to kill my neice but yet again I don't mind if she keeps the baby!

On to the next thing. Ella's dad cheated on her mom and him and his girlfriend are moving to Japan and he wanted a divorce from her mom. I'm so upset, I know Gabe and he has always been a really nice guy and seemed to love Ella and the kids so much! Ella is going back to LA tomorrow night, and I've decided to come along, just because I want to support her and her family, plus I want to meet Juliana and Chrissie and I of course miss my family a lot! Our plane leaves tomorrow night at 6 and we will arrive in LA at about 1am if everything goes well! I won't be missing any classes, which is great! I am coming home Monday morning, my plane leaves at 2am! I need to get to NYC in time for my class at noon. I'm not sure when Ella is going home though!

The last thing I want to address in this post is Jake! As you know he and I were dating and going strong before I left for NYC. We would have food together all of the time (my favorite was pasta with sea salt, or orange juice and lays chips!) and make-out on the couch, just like my parents! I have learned a lot from them about the ways of making-out/cuddling on the couch together from my many years of watching/observing them! But I had only talked to Jake 3 times since our sad, passionate goodbye the night before I left. (that was actually the night I lost my virginity on his old sofa bed right after eating orange juice and lays chips, sorry if TMI) Last night he called me and said he needed to talk. I agreed, thinking maybe he was going to come visit me or something or apologize that he hasn't called! But he surprised me. He told me the day after I left a new family moved into the house next door, with a girl our age. Jake told me she is very pretty and he is head over heels in love with her. I started to cry at this part. Jake broke up with me ending our conversation telling me he still loved me, but since he loved the new girl more, he was ended our relationship. I just cried in bed all night, I was so upset I love him so much! But this morning I woke up super angry, my anger and hatred washed away all of my love for him. I hope to find someone soon who appreciates the real me! :)

Crazy Week!

I'm sorry guys that I haven't posted in over a week, college is just so busy and different than I'm used too! And this week was no exception. I told you guys about last Monday, but then Tuesday was my free day with no classes! I slept in and did A LOT of homework until lunch time, I just made lunch at home! After lunch Drew, Ella, and I went grocery shopping because we were running out of food. (again!) I went out to dinner with Claire, a friend from my Money Management class! We ended up going shopping after dinner to the mall, I got a new scent (vanilla buttercream) for my scent portable I keep in my car, black leggings and a nerd graphic tee from Delia's, and cute fall dress and belt from Forever 21, and a skirt with a matching top and headband from Hollister! I get such a good discount there ;) Wednesday was another busy day, I had two classes and work! Some of you guys have been asking what specific classes I have, rather than just the times. Monday I have Business 2 and Western History of Arts, Wednesday I have Algebra 3 and then Literature 4, and Thursday I have Money Managment! So, Wednesday I had to wake up early for Algebra 3 at 7-10, and then Literature 4 at 10-1. I grabbed lunch at panera (pasta with sea salt) and then had to work from 2-8! I did have a half an hour dinner break at 5 though, which was good. I got home and was so tired I just went right to bed, only to get up early again for my Money Management class from 8-11! I had lunch at Panera (again) and then worked from 11:30-3:30, which wasn't bad at all! Just when I got home I was still really tired but had LOADS of homework from my Wednesday classes and Thursday! I had to work until dinner and then was so tired I just ordered pizza and went to bed early! I was so glad I did all of my homework because I really didn't have to do any homework all weekend then! Friday I slept in and watched TV for a while before going to lunch with Ella to Chick Fil A, and then grocery shopping (again omg) and out to dinner with Rose! Rose and I went to Target where I got a few cute shirts, and pair of lace-up black combat boots for fall and a few pairs of jeans! I'm doing a lot of my shopping now for the fall, and won't do much anymore, because of money and all. Saturday was my down day, I kinda just lounged around all day with Ella! Sunday I went to church, I've never been to it before I just decided I wanted to find a church in LA and will be visiting some for the next month or so before deciding! Yesterday was another tough day, I had 2 classes, Business 2 from 12-3 and then Western History of Arts 3-6, and then I worked 6:30-12:30! I had clean-up duty again lol. Today was another free day, just did homework! :)

Start of the Week

Hey everyone! So today is Monday, the start of my second week in college! Today wasn't the most exciting day, but all days can't be fun! I woke up around 8am, because I had to do some last-minute homework before my classes! So around 11 I made myself lunch (pasta with butter, sea salt, and shredded motzerella cheese) before my first class at 12! Class went until 3, and then I had another class 3-6. I grabbed some dinner on the go before heading off to work at 6! I was a little late, but my manager didn't mind :) Right now I am on my break because the store is pretty calm! I just wanted to update you guys and give some good news! My mom is adopted twin girls! I can't believe it, it's just so exciting :) Go check out her blog for details of how it all happened! I will update you guys later but I have to go, sorry this post was so short! :)

Friends!

Hey everyone! So today was very much a day spent with my friends :) It's so relaxing, I have always been such a people person! So I went out to breakfast at 9am with a friend from my Literature class, Jessica! She is really sweet and we get along well! We ended up going to Goat Milk Cafe (weird name I know!) and I got pancakes with syrup and goat milk to drink! Jess got lucky charms with goat milk, and orange juice! I got home around noon, and skyped with my mom for a little! I hadn't talked with her face to face all week, so it was really nice for me to do that! At 1 I went out for a late lunch with Drew, I love her she is so nice and easy to get along with! Ella and I both love having her as our roommate! :) We went to the Popcorn Factory, and tasted all of the different kinds of kettle corn and different flavors of popcorn! My favorite was raspberry, yum. There is a cafe there, and I got a ham and cheese sandwich and Drew got buttered pasta with sea salt! When we got back to the dorm it was around 4 and I just did some homework for class tomorrow and talked with Ella! I'm planning to go to Salsa Palace with my friend from Algebra, Sam, around 6:30! I usually get pasta with butter, salsa, and sea salt! Sounds gross but is delicious :) There is one back in LA and we went all of the time! :)

Weekend Fun!

Hey guys, haven't posted in a few days! I've been busy this weekend and have had a lot of fun on my own :) Friday, which was yesterday, I slept in late, until about 2pm! I was just really tired from my first week in college and its much tougher than I thought, but definitely a blast! After I woke up I just had some breakfast and lounged in bed all afternoon and did some homework before going out to dinner with my friend Rosalie at Super Salad! I was feeling a little unhealthy, eating so much junk food all week, I thought salad would be a good choice and eat something healthy for a change! We left around 6, and didn't get back until 9! It was great just catching up with Rose, I had missed her a lot! When I got back home Ella and I just hung out in our room for a while, and I was trying to finish up my homework! Today, Saturday, was much busier! I woke up early because I was going to breakfast with a group of girls from my Algebra class, which was fun getting to know them better! I got home and then realized we were out of paper towels and laundry detergent. It was so busy at the grocery store where I get those things, it took an hour! I was getting really really hungry, so I stopped at Chick-fil-a (again) for some quick lunch before heading back home! After dropping those things off at home, I drove to the laundromat (we don't have a washer and dryer) and dropped my clothes off! I killed half an hour just walking around town waiting for my laundry. By the time I got home it was 3pm, so I just lounged around and did my homework! For dinner, Ella and I went to Panera. I got buttered pasta with sea salt and she got a mixed green salad with a side of fruit! When we got back I didn't do much but homework and my computer! I feel as if all I do is homework, but its kinda true! College life is so much harder than home, and I definitely miss my family so much and haven't been able to talk to them much because I'm so busy, but I love college so much! :)

My First Week

Hi! My first week in college has been much better than expected! You guys already heard about Monday and Tuesday, but today is Thursday so I have a lot to say :) Wednesday was similar to Monday, but worse! I had to wake up early, because my first class was 7-10. It was Reading and Comprehension, which wasn't that bad! Then 10-1 was Literature, which was fun because I love to read! And then I just had enough time to grab lunch on the go before I had to head off to work at 2! I had a dinner break at 5 for half an hour, but then I had to go back and work until 8! I can't believe how busy my schedules are, but I guess its understandable considering I'm taking 5 classes and working my butt of to afford all of this! But it definitely is worth it because I love college :) Today, Thursday, was an easy day! I had a Money Management class from 8-11, and then I got lunch at Panera and worked 11:30-3:30! Now, work is actually kinda enjoyable because I know my way around Hollister and know how to work things and all! After work I had to go to Staples because I needed a few things for school, and I ended up running into one of my good Middle School friends, Rosalie! It turns out she is actually going to the same school as me! She is going for Elementary Education and Photography though, so we don't have any classes. But, we are in the same building, even the same floor! Funny that we didn't even know that! But by the time I got out of there it was 5:30, so I decided to grab dinner at Chic-fil-A because I was starving! I got home about half an hour ago and have just been chilling with Ella and doing homework! :)