Upset (reply to Ella)

Ella, this post is directed to you! Right now I'm in our bathroom, fully clothed sitting on the floor with our labtop, all alone! So our shower has a shower curtion, as you know. I walked in and when I heard the shower on I got all dizzy and felt really upset! I wasn't sure if I was ready to get into a serious relashionship when I am pregnant and just lost Jake! I still do love him, in a way, but I know I love Jasper, too! I I hid in our bathroom closet and told Jasper to get dressed and leave because I wasn't ready! He didn't say a word, he just left. I felt bad, but I know its the right choice! Ella, I know you are religious and so am I! We might have different ways of looking at relationships, but my relashionship with Jake was sweet and pure, I didn't tell anyone this but we were planning on getting married when we both turned 20! So I didn't think it would harm anything if we didn't wait until we got married. But, I still don't regret it because I got my baby out of it all! I love him/her so much and don't regret any of my choices! :)